Pardon Me...I think your tampon string is showing...

I was minding my business, listening to Any Crown. Just trying to get some bad vibes off of me...and guess what. The Devil takes many forms...but it is always the Devil. (The Tudors)

There has GOT to be a special hot corner of hell for selfish "fathers".

Once again, summer is here and my son is off to New York with my EX WIFE. Yes I call him an EX WIFE. Because there was nothing HUSBANDLY about him and there is nothing FATHER like about him NOW.

I mean, year after year, holiday after holiday, it's the same thing. And I am TIRED. I have my children nine months out of the year- my daughter sometimes longer. I make sure my children are involved in some kind of activity. Most of them after school. Boy Scouts, football, basketball, the girl volunteers HER weekend time to help out with the youth in the community. On a Saturday she wants to go to the library or a CAREER FAIR. And as being a MOTHER. A MOM. MOMMY. I make sure he gets where he has to go, if I am not able to pick him up, someone in my SUPPORT SYSTEM, my VILLAGE makes sure he gets where he has to go if work conflicts with their schedules. I was blessed to have a young man from my church (shout out Jarrin R.) that picks him up FAITHFULLY every Wednesday and brings him to meetings, texts me every time he has a camp out and reminds me the list of things he will need for trips because he knows my mind is preoccupied with SIX BILLION other concerns and I am TIRED. Jarrin works I dont know how many jobs, but he still makes that time on Wednesdays. He gets excited when all the reports come back on Chanz's achievements. Does your sorry tail know that Chanz actually saved a young child from falling off a ledge, that he was the first one IN, the first OBSERVANT SCOUT on the hike? And didnt think about HIMSELF?

My son will grow to be a BETTER MAN than you could ever dream to be.

Chanz LOVES Boy Scouts. He is PROUD to be a Tender Foot and wants to advance. (I still think it should be called Thunder Foot...) He has to attend a summer camp for ONE WEEK. ONE WEEK out of an entire summer he gets to spend with his father. And you mean to tell me your LAME DEPENDENT GOD-LESS waste of GENETICS SELF wont let him ENJOY HIS SUMMER FOR ONE WEEK. You guilt him and use his INNOCENCE against him and he feels BAD for you so he agrees to STAY with you. That is the EPITOME of selfishness.

And you WOULD THINK after THIRTEEN YEARS that this boy has been on the planet, he would have it figured out by now just what being a FATHER is about? Not a weekly child support check, not the holidays when you want to strut your BOY around. Chanz shouldnt even have your last NAME. I SURELY DIDNT TAKE IT. I guess not when figuring out that being a "MAN" at the ripe age of 45 you are still at home with your mother in your tight little corner of a bedroom of ignorant cheap blue paint bliss.Talk about being caught between a rock and a hard place, your "space" is between your mother and your decrepid creepy UNCLE. Yes. RONALD CRAIG MITCHELL. I am talking about YOU. Just make sure when youre playing sleepover with my son- he doesnt find your creepy porn magazines in the bottom of your dressser drawers on the left hand side.

I am so sick and TIRED of excuses, excuses and WEAK MEN. Oh you live so far. Guess what. God allowed man to have this great little invention called A VEHICLE. Stop borrowing your mother's ....stop RENTING ONE and get your OWN. Learn how to use a BUS by all means. I made my bed 13 yrs ago, 14 years ago. And guess what? I lay in it. I love in it. I have GREAT KIDS...GREAT TEENS... I dont regret having them at all. But MY GOD.

Enough is enough.

Do I drag my ex husband back into a judicial system that doesnt hold him accountable to anything but a weekly garnishment and promise of a police escort when legally I cant take my own SON myself without it be being considered KIDNAPPING? Do I wait on the Highest court to render judgement?

By the way....Happy Father's Day to you MEN who think of your children FIRST. Who stay home with your FAMILIES. The ones that DO NOT MAKE EXCUSES and feel the world owes them ANYTHING and sits around with A DOLLAR AND A DREAM. Who puts their children's needs above YOURS..... Who dont believe that sending that SUPPORT all year is TAKING CARE OF YOUR CHILD.